... I know that we didn't get to the answer you wanted... and I'm sorry for that. I plan to keep looking.
But... don't think that you didn't make a difference. Everybody's efforts make a difference. We got way closer this week than last. I have to believe that counts for something.
[he'll move to just hold her hand gently between both of his own]
... so smart.
[and he just laughs a little bit with the words]
Like he could talk around me... but he didn't get told he was smart that often. He wasn't really appreciated for everything that he could do. He always looked surprised to hear that someone cared about him. But he would do his best to take care of people too, even if he was out of his depth....
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I think - he was pretty unhappy.... but it was just harder to notice because he spent his time trying to flatter other people instead.
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... I know that we didn't get to the answer you wanted... and I'm sorry for that. I plan to keep looking.
But... don't think that you didn't make a difference. Everybody's efforts make a difference. We got way closer this week than last. I have to believe that counts for something.
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To think I'm the one who needed cheering up this time...
Thank you, Mineo. You truly have a good heart.
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You think? That's definitely a compliment....
But it's okay to need some cheering up. Loss is hard, especially if it's the people close to you.
Luca-san was my friend too so I... I'll probably need a little longer to heal, too.
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... It's strange. I've lived a long time, and seen a lot of people die over the years. I didn't think the death of a human could affect me anymore.
Perhaps it's because I've started spending time around people who truly care.
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... It's harder, I think, for people to really feel the death of someone they don't know. Of someone who didn't bother to get to know them.
But...
It was different for you and Starphase-san, right?
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He had every reason to distrust me. By all rights, we should have been mortal enemies. But we overcame that, and...
...and someone took him away, anyway.
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.... it's never fair.
To lose people like that.
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... It isn't.
You know, I never really got the chance to talk with Luca. What was he like?
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... so smart.
[and he just laughs a little bit with the words]
Like he could talk around me... but he didn't get told he was smart that often. He wasn't really appreciated for everything that he could do. He always looked surprised to hear that someone cared about him. But he would do his best to take care of people too, even if he was out of his depth....
[ . . . ]
I think - he was pretty unhappy.... but it was just harder to notice because he spent his time trying to flatter other people instead.
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Well, now I wish I'd gotten to know him.
[a pause, and a sigh.]
I keep trying to think about what could have motivated the events of that night. Maybe he was just in the wrong place, at the wrong time...
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No, it's...
It has to be premeditated. Someone needed to decide to kill them beforehand - that's why they were awake at all.
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I suppose I'm still no closer to the truth, then.